oh its ON!

my friends and I (Jess, Lanie, and Abi) are having a minor contest to see which one of us looks like the better bella.. vote for me here!!! I write under "the new mayor of forks"

c'mon PLEASEEE!

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growing pains

"we know we're near the end.. the best is ready to begin."

that was my high school senior quote. little did i know how true that could be. endings are always bittersweet, because there is always something new following it. its the 26th of january, and only now do i find the time to reflect on the last year, on my circumstances and my character, and put it down on paper..

2008 was the most trying year of my life, emotionally. i gave birth to twins, buried one, and tried to hold myself together as the other fought his way through the NICU. i took 6 months off of work as the economy worsened, watched my credit go to shit, cut back on shopping while trying to maintain my standard of living. i went out, and on vacations to try and keep my "chi" in check, but there were nights when i didnt think i could stand to wake up in the morning. i fell out with my best friend, and even though i dont regret the outcome, it always hurts when you lose someone you cared for in any way, shape, or form.

one of Adonis' ninongs told me, that he never really liked me till i got pregnant. (gee thanks, ariel) and that motherhood changed me. i think tee had the best summation of my character when she said "Rachel? she's not friendly but she's a good friend." my best friend cat said that i am the meanest and yet most caring person she's ever known. (how thats possible i'm not sure) but i think this year, i became the epitome of opposite juxtaposition. this year i let it all go, i let it all hang out, and i let it all change me.

my husband and i celebrated our one year marriage anniversary last year... and i really have no words to explain how i feel about him. he drives me absolutely INSANE, but i wouldnt want to be sane with anybody else. he has been the steady hand to my shaken soul, has cried with me, for me, about me and still choses to spend every night asleep next to me. if that aint love, i dont know what is.

through it all, i've gained perspective. i know WHERE i've been and where i'm going. i know WHAT i'm willing to fight for. i know WHO i will ride or die for. i know WHEN to close my eyes and jump, and HOW to let God take care of the rest.

good to great in 2008. see me shine in 2009.
boss bizness.. here we go.

apologies

...for my absence. i haven't found the time (or the balls) to do anything non-work related at work. but today, i really could give a fuck if they see me blogging or not. with that said... HELLO! the inauguration yesterday was inspiring, uplifting, and i got extra swag in my step cuz we got a black president. according to my other husband, justin timberlake, having Obama as president makes the united states just that much cooler. and i have to agree...

i've been uninspired to write anything worthy of blogging lately, mainly because i've been too busy wah-ing over this whole work ordeal and prepping for hawaii.. so as i ease back into the groove of things, i only have one thing to say..

i'm back and in full effect, boyyyyeeeeeeeee!!!!!

mind ur damn bizness

i find myself in a FUNK this week.  one of my nosy ass coworkers snitched to my boss about my internet usage (meebo, myspace, blogger, etc) and now i'm on lock.  the only reason i found out that my shit is being monitored now, is because my friend in I.T. got the request and called me right away....    this "no non-work-related internet" shit is really throwing me off.  i feel so disconnected from the world, i havent checked my myspace, checked ANY of my favorite blogs, even posted anything on my own blog...  and i have to use aim on my phone. WAH!

 

but where there's a will, theres a way.  didja know u can post a blog to blogspot by email?  which is exactly what i'm doing right now..    so please bare with me while i get my funk straightened out. i shall return to you all shortly...

 

in the meantime, who wants to find me a new job?  forreal forreal i need one.  

 

 

Rachel Tan Brito
San Mateo Medical Center


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feeling lucky..

i found this picture while looking through my old computer at my parents house...   baker beach on a cold ass day, walking hand in hand with my then fiance...    i am so blessed to have found someone who knows all my flaws and yet loves me anyways.   thats all.  

t'why-i-like Twilight

thanks to Yoshi and Miss Lawn for starting our Twilight Book Club/ Blogroll...

What the Forks?

"In our last efforts to prolong our obsession (yes, it’s an obsession) of Stephanie Meyer’s Twilight Saga, Jess and I have finally put up our blog, “What The Forks?” for all ya’ll. Continue to check us out for your daily dose of all things Twilight cuz we know if you’re just like us, you can’t ever get enough Twilight. We’ll be posting anything and everything… whether it be, news on the upcoming New Moon movie, our thoughts on the books, or gossip and pics of the cast, specifically our favorite and yours, Robert Pattinson, aka Edward Cullen… swoooonnn!!!" - misslawncullen

ENGRISH

AIM chat room - ihatework
[10:51] Anna: am i repeating myself if i say "smelly odor"?
[10:52] Bern: technically yes you are repeating yourself
[10:52] Anna: i am?
[10:52] Anna: urgh
[10:52] Queenie: isnt odor just smell? or is it always just bad smell?
[10:53] Bern: odor is just smell
[10:53] raaachem: odor is just smell
[10:53] raaachem: smelly implies that it smells bad
[10:53] Bern: but if you describe something as smelly it's the same?
[10:53] raaachem: yes
[10:53] raaachem: smelly = bad odor
[10:53] Bern: so you wouldn't need both words right?
[10:53] Queenie: but smell and odor are nouns like scent and aroma
[10:54] raaachem: true story
[10:54] Bern: american english SUCKS!
[10:54] Bern: lol
[10:54] Anna: how about stank odor?
[10:54] Queenie: yah it does!
[10:55] Anna: Stank odor repeating myself?
[10:55] Queenie: i dont get how some words are the same. minute as in time and minute as in small. makes no sense!!!
[10:55] Bern: lol
[10:55] Bern: right!
[10:56] Queenie: and u pronounce them differently. WTF??!!? ITS THE SAME!!! lol
[10:56] raaachem: lol.
[10:56] Bern: lol.
[10:56] raaachem: and no
[10:56] raaachem: stank odor is NOT repeating urself
[10:56] raaachem: well
[10:56] raaachem: technically
[10:56] Queenie: oh and produce as in to produce and produce as in fruit and veggies
[10:56] raaachem: stank is the adjective to odor's noun
[10:56] Bern: hahaha
[10:57] Anna: slamit!
[10:57] Queenie: if thats the case then why is body odor = bad odor?
[10:57] Bern: i technically see it as repeating bc when something is "stank" or "smelly" you automatically think odor
[10:57] Queenie: my body has an odor but i do not stank!
[10:57] Bern: but all the same
[11:00] Queenie: whos odor are u talking about to begin with?
[11:00] Bern: hahaha
[11:02] Anna: my co workers...
[11:02] Anna: her pits are stinging my nose
[11:03] Bern: EWWW
[11:03] Queenie: hahahhaha
[11:03] Anna: or the sweater she leaves in the offices need to be washed


for those of you who think that my AIM chats consist of talking shit, trying to take over the world, or plotting your demise.. you have been proven wrong. we talk about..STUPID SHIT. all day... today's topic, the idiocracy of the engrish language.

steezy

this is new. lets see how long it keeps my interest.. thanks jess!

http://lookbook.nu/raaachem

you ALMOST had me...

ALMOST... but no cigar.

you almost had me feeling sorry for you, again. you almost had me feeling like i was a bad friend. you almost convinced me that you arent so bad. you almost made me apologize for not "being there for you when you needed me".. you almost got me thinking its not ur fault. you almost made me want to completely forgive you and try and be friends again.. you almost had me...

and then i remembered how you almost became the ninang of my son, but u didnt show up. and then you almost opened the xmas gift i got you last year, but you werent there at the party. and you almost saw my surviving son in the NICU when he was born, but you didnt come to the hospital. or how you almost called me at the perfect time one year ago because i needed you more than anything... but you called me for something else entirely. you almost had me believe that i meant something to you, but then disappointed me at every chance u could. you almost let me try and be there for you, but then you went and disappeared..

... you almost had me thinking that you could change... but you didnt.

and you cant cry your way out of this one. you cant twist shit around and somehow make it about you and somehow make it my fault , and then say how i should feel sorry for you and just magically FORGET all the foul shit thats gone down.. because point blank, i cant.

even though i almost thought i could....

and almost doesnt count.

Happy birthday boys..

January 3, 2009:
Happy 1st birthday to my sons..Adonis and Mateo. I love you always

-- Post From My iPhone